What is usually not such a big deal(making a sandwich for my wife for lunch) was as challenging as you might think 16 hours into a water fast. Not even a moment after Heather asked me if I could make her some lunch, did I begin bracing myself for what was to come. Holding my breath and speedy preparation was key, but easy it was not. I found myself practically eating the food with my eyes-but off with the sandwich to my wife and quickly away went all trace of foods from the counter. I’m approaching mid-day, and my confidence in this fast is growing.
a simple favor with no flavor
Keto a go-go
So, welcome back to my words on this blog of mine that’s been in hibernation. Much has transpired since i last typed into the ether via technology, but alas here I am. I am resuming and excited with a new direction and path to go forward. Since this past December, I have been experimenting more with the Ketogenic lifestyle(Low carb, moderate protein, high fat), integrating exogenous ketones, and intermittent fasting. Last night I began a 60 hour fast, and am currently a little over 12 hours into it. It’s water only, with a few servings of pure therapeutic exogenous ketones throughout the day. So far doing well, but I know I’m still really early on this. I’ve done up to an 18 hour previously. My intention here is to document what I encounter with updated entries. Thanks for reading if you did, and poo poo to you if you didn’t-but you must’ve if you read that so no hard feelings i guess?
changes to my organic structure
I wish to use this space for the purpose of keeping a daily account of what I notice happening to me as a result of ketosis and intermittent fasting. I have been experimenting with both ketosis and fasting lately, but am upping the ante and would like to be able to share with others what I am experiencing as a result. I am also planning to express my thoughts about what I’m learning about along the way in an attempt to become a psuedo blogger with some expertise through experimentation. So, yaay-hope you enjoy
Wtf do you do?
What the fuck do you do
when the sky looks blue to most, but black to you
What the fuck do you do
when all seems lost, yet so much is clearly in view
What the fuck do you do
when your inner most sorrows are mistakenly new
What the fuck do you do
when your life sounds like a chorus of too few
Learning
We build off past experiences, and this sometimes can be a hindrance to developing new habits. At what point do we reach our limits of what is working and what is not and decide that it’s time for a change? This is a question I find myself asking on a pretty regular basis, although it often time gets shelved because off past conditioning. The stubborn nature of this common behavior seems to constantly take me to a cross roads
where I far too often go down easy street instead of the alternative unfamiliar one. Establishing new learning patterns and habits is one trait that will always require a steadfast commitment and courageous action. Coming to this realization and affirming it is a step in the right direction, and reminding ourselves that even though different is difficult, the same is lame.
Pressed for words
So I started this blog back in November with the right intentions-which were to use it as a springboard for ideas in life and to eventually transition my website to a WordPress site. The problems that I ran into seem to be somewhat common to Wp newbies. The issue being that the blog that I started on WordPress.com is not really the platform that I had envisioned for my website, and that I needed install WordPress the program to manage my content. I had confused myself into thinking that this would be a relatively simple transition, and being relatively saavy with technology felt confident that I could just wing it. This was not the case as I later discovered when I finally was ready to move my content to a new host from my previous- and utulize the full spectrum of WordPress magic. Oh well, you live and you learn. So now I have a hosted WordPress website(www.carlmt.com) with a blog page-and I have my blog(s) here. I’m okay with this set up, and would actually prefer to keep them separate from one another. Anyways, I needed to get this off my chest before my next post just to rationalize the gap in time since my last blog. Here’s to the learning curve….cheers!
What is this?
I’ve had this question looping in my mind more lately, and I think it’s been a good question for shaking things up for me. Life can really root our patterns deeper and deeper, and this to me is becoming more unacceptable when I ask myself “what is this?”, meaning what is this thing that’s playing out right now and causing the same reaction that I’m so familiar with. Bringing that awareness to any situation is something to celebrate and commit to, and recommit to what it is that is more congruent with values and goals in life. The instant gratification, and comfort associated to these sticky thoughts just end up clogging progress and stiffling creativity.
It sounds simple, and should be-but old habits die hard for most of us. The good news it that the more we bring that awareness to the front of our minds, the better we get at seeing it unfold before our very eyes. Even if you’re already midway through this reactive pattern before this clarity comes to you, it strengthens your resolve to move in a different direction for the next time. This is something pretty universal that we are all capable of, and should not be ignored. A dharma talk that I listen to regularly by Joseph Goldstein comes to mind when he says “It’s already here”. This is a great reminder and in the moment teaching that is the essense of what we can all uncover on a regular basis.
Doubt and Aversion
Another day, another doubt, another aversion. It’s so cyclical that it often makes us dizzy, but these days for me that dizziness has become somewhat of a flag post with a pretty clear message. Stop, and investigate why it is that I’m doubting or feeling aversive. This insight is what I’d like to point out in this brief little blog post here. My doubt as it relates to my meditation practice and how despite the fact that I’ve seen the fruits of it, I still manage to put other things first far too often. Doubt in my parenting ability, and how this often spirals into procrastination, which leads to aversion. Aversion that quickly transmutes into further doubting, and so on…
I made it a point to throw this out there, because I’m determined to reshape this, and return back to the beginning. These are impermanent mind states that we all have, and the sooner we recognize them for what they are, the sooner we can move forward and closer to freedom.
Who I am and why I’m here
My name is Carl-I’m a Dad, Husband, and Bodyworker specializing in Muscular Therapy and currently studying CranioSacral Therapy. My intention is to use this new blog as a springboard for putting a new website together for my private practice and to gain some confidence using wordpress. Writing blogs has been an interest of mine that up until now was only just a thought. I’m really excited to be just “doing it” and getting it out there.
I plan to blog on everything from Spirituality, Parenthood, Relationships, Bodywork, CranioSacral Therapy, and Mysticism. Hopefully I have a few eyes to watch me as I go from novice blogger to wordpress extraordinaire. May this be a cathartic and educational experience for myself and any readers who decide join me on this new journey!
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